You shall welcome us. Wednesday, Feb 3 2021 

A bottle of wine in and who are you?

I A wise lover to be headed

Or an old man looking for obedience

I am not your dog

But I will u bite..

Down on the hand of uniformity

We are not your progeny

We are our very own creatures

And we wait in the dark

The dark to you gave us to render you blind

And though you do not see us

We shall rise

And you,

Faint of heart

Shall crumble

We are the now

And you shall

Welcome us

Or

Fear the progress

Do not fear me

I am you

And i will come for you.

-A.s.L. =^.^=©

dark nights and dark rum Wednesday, Jun 22 2011 

another night of tall glasses filled with dark rum

and darker needs

roll some ganja and lay back

lets play like we were still young

that glass is looking low lets get another

take another hit and try to get closer to where your at

yours is gone again and mines almost empty

looking into a tall glass at a shalow crimson silouet of myself

hating that im wanting more

and not only of this drink

that one lost peice Thursday, Jan 27 2011 

im giving up now

there’s no point any more

the dark prince won

and the king is lost

what will happen of the fair maiden

ill tell you

 

she wondered into the forest to die

there sadly she did no such thing

she walked and wondered

to deep to find her way out

she there still but lost in so many ways

 

to her it’s all screaming

all loud crippeling reminders

echoing off the walls of her head

failure, guilt, regret..

 

you can see her still

walking empty eyed

there’s nothing left inside

just pain

just the slight curve in her eyebrow

to show she could still feel that

she could still feel pain

if only that

 

she remembers happiness

she remembers looking into the good kings eyes

she rembers  life, air, feelings….

it’s all gone now

 

she carved it out of her heart and thew it to the woods

that girl has it now

she scars the fair maiden

always watching

standing there still beckoning her at the end of the path

she dare not go there

so forever she’ll wonder these woods

void of happiness waiting to find that lost piece

but never brave enough to take it back…

 

saveing her at my expense Saturday, Sep 18 2010 

i cant belive he’d do this

why is this happening again

why!

it feels like my skin is screaming

like every part of me is running in a different direction

i cant focus

i hate her so much

worthless whore

your saving her from darkness

as i plummet screaming into it

all the times i remember with him his eyes in the sun all framed neatly in my mind crack and shatter

but instead of falling i feel the shards cutting into my sanity

but it wasnt suppose to be this way

why is she there!

an accident

a mistake

then why again

please tell me what is she, a mistake

a fucking mistake

that is driving me into the depths of insanity

i don’t want to go there

its dark

i hear the sound of cycads

im scared of that sound

things are so demented there

terrifying and dangerous

why is this happening

it wasnt suppose the feel this bad

it wasnt suppose to be this way

She isn’t me Thursday, Aug 5 2010 

Behind where I walk there is another but Who’s in the front In the dark, I run don’t let the lights go out The raindrops turn into droplets of blood and travel down cheeks I’m not her please let me go the lights are dimming I’ll take you away with one breath To the dark forest where cicadas cry I can’t try anymore Being made to disappear thought by thought on the other side of the dark the morning won’t come anymore Inside the mirror with countless cry’s of pain and warning Come on, lure someone here come here, uttered ominously screaming, “no run!” it capture’s you walking down the trail where cicadas cry The voice that I use is no more I’ll take you away with one breath To the dark forest where cicadas cry It isn’t me I’m not myself any more No matter how you have to get away stay far from where cicadas cry she is not me i loved you